Rose Coloured Glasses

I have been trying to change my outlook to be a more positive one as of late, and this has made a huge difference in my life. Not only has my outlook been more positive, but I have really started to notice where my thought patterns are going astray, and that awareness alone has made it possible for me to ignore my ego from time and time and let love shine through.

After a very powerful book club meeting, and some conversations about teacher training at Power Yoga Canada this summer, I felt like I needed to make a huge change in my life. I got really amped up, and felt that the words of others were truly motivating me. I also received a message from a blog friend that evening asking me why I don't try to find a way to make my passion for yoga and fitness a career. That was it, I had the "signs". I was going to go to teacher training, at $5000, for 2 intensive weeks in August.

Of course this news did not sit well with Mike. He immediately questioned where this idea was coming from, how I would come up with the money when I am still paying off other debts, and why did it have to be now? Why not save? It is not logical. It's a bad time. Why haven't I talked about teacher training lately? Why all of a sudden do I need to do the training NOW? 

My bubble of excitement and happiness had burst, and reality set in. I had been looking at this through rose coloured glasses.
Yes I would have the training completed in only 2 short weeks (instead of the usual 9 week program they offer), but I would be further in debt, which would then cause me more stress. I would also be taking ALL of my available vacation time from work at once, and would not have any vacation time left to spend with my husband or family.

Yogis might tell me that everything will work itself out in the end, the money will come, and that may be true. But I want to be secure in the fact that I can pay off my debts first, save the full amount for whatever training I decide to do, and then be able to enjoy it without worrying about money. Things WILL work themselves out, the way they are meant to for ME. Maybe for someone else putting $5000 on their credit card now and paying it off later on down the road is ok, but for me it's not. I have worked SO hard to get myself out of debt, and the $0 remaining balance is so close I can taste it. If I continue to work hard, make the right money decisions, and save, my time will come. And that time will mean even more to me because I will be able to fully enjoy the experience and soak in all the training that I crave.

This has also opened my mind up to different training options that are really speaking to me.
I AM SO EXCITED about what is coming up in my life. I know what I have to do, I am so motivated to do it.
For now, I have decided to attend workshops that interest me, commit to more home practice, and continue with the positive books I have been reading. I have also started to journal, which has helped boost me when I'm not feeling so confident.

I have taken off those rose coloured glasses, that make you see a masked world.

I can feel a shift coming, and I am ready to propel myself forward and be the best me I can be!




Namaste!